It's finally over!!! Yee!!!! I finally finished up my final. Fucking 5-7 page essay that I gotta write about fast food. That shit be pissing me off. It's worth a whole letter grade too. Shit... man. I am fucking happy that it's all over with. =] whew... well I still got reading lab stuff to finish, but im hoping ill be done with it all by tonight, cause its due tomorrow. >_<>_> FUCK KAISER. Okay. i stop for now, i just wanna stop typing and watch some naruto or something.
1. I want to redecorate my whole room all over again. Getting tired of this crampiness. >_>
2. Must Finish doing my research paper. Schools almost over! yee!!! ^_^
3. Throw out all the clothes that I don't wanna wear anymore. . Imma use the room next door to throw all the useless shit in. Sadd... *tear* Poor old clothes. You got no love no more.
4. Have to. HAVE TO, pay off all of my hospital bills. this is getting ridiculous. OBAMA. Pass that law already.
5. Ask for a raise in august.. How do I even approach this type of situation?
6. I really need to put my old memories behind me, and focus on the new.
7. Stop being such a bitch all the time, people know that their doing wrong you don't have to put them on blast!
8. They're still going at it.. >_> pretending their not together, but they fuck every other day.
9. Naruto has soo many damn episodes! I will never catch up!
10. Gotta Pre-pack everything till the end of the year. Bye bye big house & Big bathroom.
11. You can get money back for donating clothes on your taxes? SWeet!
12. Why do good girls go bad?
13. Why do you approach me with "sup virgin?" Niggah what the fuck? I have a name you know..
14. Sorry I completely blew you off last night, I was in my "mode" to finish my damn paper.
15. I really want to get back into dancing again, I miss being on stage.
16. I want my hair to grow longer =[
17. I wanna get a BIGGER tat xD
18. Must continue to clean room.
Wow. The last time I posted something was really during christmas time. That's a lot of memories missed. =[ Let's see update on life. Still working at Stockton burgers, going to be one year of me working there in august. Maybe I should ask for a raise? lol we'll see. Still going to school at CRC and struggling to catch up to everyone else. We're losing our house =[ We'll my parents are trying to figure out what they should do in the meantime (looking for a different house, go foreclosure, etc..) Life with Phu? Everything has been doing fine, until now. Maybe the heat is just getting to me or something, im not so sure. I feel that I'm putting a lot more effort in our relationship than he is. Thats pretty much sums it up though. We went to the fair together with Jowe on Sunday and ate some aligator meat. Yum! Freaking 8 almost 9 dollars for it though. Total rip off. >_< rel="question">Whats so special about GW? (I would love to play with you, just don't wanna deal with your controlling internet gfs when we team up)
I don't play with anyone really anymore... only a few close friends, and internet gf's...and grow up it's only a 35 year old lady
I don't need to grow up. How would you feel if I asked you to spend time playing something with me because it was something of your interest and I had a controlling ass friend that wouldn't accept you tagging along becuase "you" didn't know what you were doing? & of course I do nothing about it to defend for you because my friend is just "kidding" around. the last time i remmeber of guild wars. She was helping us out with a mission ( I didn't even know what I was doing most of the time, you guys didn't bother to help) and when I did something wrong. "UGH! I can't believe that she did that, now we gotta do it all over again. Why did you even bring her along? We could of done this mission outselves soo better faster.... I don't give a shit if she has a missing butt check, 80 years old or what not. She disrepected me over a dumb ass game, who takes games soo seriously anyway? Shes fucking controlling, believe it or not. handicapp whatever. You can't expect me to play games with you and to enjoy it when you got a crazy pro telling you what to do and won't let you experiece the game yourself. I know it gets to you everytime I say no, but seriously. Everytime I go on, your not spending time with me, your just dragging me along with your "virtual" crowd.
Again, you've kept me waiting. its been five hours and the last text I got from you was "I'm driving to the atm, I'll call you when I get home" Its 11:11 Phu. I went on FB just to keep myself busy and I seeing you posting something about how you would want to sleep tonight? So much, for a call back when your gonna come home. =[
I feel like im doing soo much and getting so little. I'm in debt cause I always spend money on you. Money that I never have, you always say your broke. But you take care of your shit. I want to take care of mines too. I feel that starting today, we are going to grow more and more apart and your just going to continue using the excuse "i've been busy" to keep me hoping for a change. Being busy is yes, going to school going to work taking care of errands yes. being busy having dinner at a friends house? Playing games over night? Driving to the beach in the middle of the night with your friends? Oh I just forgot to call you cause I'm soo tired & already falling asleep? Yeah... you've been busy alright.
*sighs* Shove my disrupted feelings aside. Struggling to finish homework, because I have that in mind. Should I just distant myself away from him as well? Why bother waiting, when I could be doing something useful for myself right? He wouldn't even notice i'm gone..