I'm leaving tonight. For the good. Phu finally realized that I have had enough of his parents. Plus, took him two months to figure it out. But hey its something. Yesterday, his parents gave us crap again like usual and phu decided that it's time for me to go. I don't really want to say much. Got a headache. To end off the rest of the day. Both Phu and I are going to watch the fireworks at Bodega Bay tonight before heading back to Sacramento. =] Gonna miss him like crazy when he's gone. Oh yay! Update...I got my lucky title and my unlucky title lol. So far, we just told his dad that I was leaving and he choked on his words. He wanted to say something BS, but we stunned him for the moment. He wanted us to take his car (its to make sure that Phu doesn't end up running away) So its for sure that he'll come back home. But phu insisted of taking his car LOL. His mom is gonna have a fit though. Anyways, his dad has guest over, so he didn't want to look bad. He was all sucking up to Phu and asking to use his camera over the weekend. UGH. I have officially decided that we are going to be a broken family. Only cause his side, treat me as if im a rat living in their home. They haven't given me any sign of respect since I've been here. Only to push me down, call me names and order me around like some house maid. As for my parents, their slowing giving Phu a chance to regain his trust. OO By the way, on the 4th is a bad reunion. Let's just hope that nothing bad happens on this upcoming fourth. =] Well I've been packing all morning && cleaning to make sure everything is gonna go smoothly. I'm just hoping that his parents don't ask why I'm leaving home and pretend stupid. Cause I really have to be open minded and break my chain with his family. Phu is the first asian and the last asian guy I will ever date. I don't know what the fuck type of tradition asian ways their trying to pull. but im not going through this BS anymore. I AM A HUMAN BEING.
Lately, I have been having really crazy thoughts.. Every time I close my eyes, Crazy ass dreams.. man.. I don't really know where to start. I had a couple the day before yesterday, that was a lot more dramatic than last nights. My very first dream was placed in the future. Both phu and I were married for about 14 years and we decided to take a break. Phu took the break to a whole different level and decided to date behind my back. He was dating this typically asian girl, decent like for a good 7 months. His two other friends were also in the dream. Kevin && Kiani. they did date in the past, but in my dream they were still together. awkward, but yeah. they seemed to know what he was doing, but was fine with the idea. He invited me to a dinner with all of them. I met up with them at some resturant, wondered why there was a girl sitting next to him and how I was sitting on the opposite side. Found out the truth, freaked out. Went NEGRO on his ass, left. He chased after me home. We had a home together near the ocean. in the back yard was a dock, I locked all the doors so he wouldn't get near me. While locking him inside the house and screaming I tripped on the dock and drowned to my death. =] My second dream, was ugh...now im trying to remember it all. HAHA. MAN, too much of that msg I swear. LOL Hmm my second dream took place at the super market. Haha the group that I hang out with was in this dream. ISH. lol We were up in Richmond at the Pacific asian mall. We were split up and grabbing things. Phu was with tuan and dee up in the chip isle and grabbing some snacks. John and everyone else was out to get alcohol. LOL I got distracted by a sign that said crawfish for a dollar. LOL ( like a safeway bag worth for a dollar each). I freaked out and grabbed my own cart and bought about 15 dollars worth. LOL Then For some reason, I was craving seaweed in my dream and I found a poster board size bag of them for 5 bucks. I met up with everyone. Everyone called me crazy, but they were excited cause we have hella food. =] Funky second dream... I was hungry xD My third dream. Took place at the superbowl. HUGE STADIUM FOSHO. Only Me and jowe were together in this dream. the thing was sponsered by Round table and they were giving out free pizza to everyone. Of course jowe and I sat at the very end of the row. so we got the last piece. There was only one and jowe gave me the last piece. I felt bad and told him ill go get more for him. While I was telling him that I was gonna get more pizza. They were shooting t-shirts and hotdogs with the potato gun lol. They also said that there was a contest of a celebrity in the stadium in disguise and if we found out who it was. We would get a automatic contract sign or some shit. To find out, when i was looking for the round table. It was all the way in the front entrance. Everyone was inside watching the game so barely anyone was in the front. I saw the celebrity. I can't remember if it was USHER or CHRIS BROWN. both mofos are negro. LOL but gyeah found them, and got the contract signed to be in musicvideo/song. But i told jowe to take my place instead. UGH. cause i dont really like them. Anyways, bought some pizza and got it back to jowe. END. LOL My very last dream was sort of like my first. We were both at my friend mario's house and his ex decided to come by to visit. For some reason she was acting differently (more outgoing than usual) and macking on Phu. I guess trying to piss off mario or what not. Roque and I were downstairs playing on the wii. She takes phu outside and brags about how cool his car is. ( trying to get him in the car to drive off somewhere "private" ). For some reason, mario stayed inside the house. Both roque and I came outside and sat on marios car and watched them two do what they were doing. I didn't want to sound like a girlfriend that would trip, so I let them go off. Phu likes it when people brag about stuff he likes, so he had no idea what she was trying to pull off. LOL cause hes blind like that. xD that was the end of the dream.
REALITY CHECK!
Both phu and I are doing well, but I have my doubts. Always! lol but then most of these dreams were caused by hunger and bad days. His parents drives me nuts and they always scream before or after we go to bed. Anyways, My first dream was easy to break apart. Took in the future because phu and I talk about what we want when we have a settled life. I have my insecurities, so thats where the break takes part. The random girl? Well, probably cause my friend met a girl online and we hung out with them a couple days ago. kevin and kiani? Kevin was in it, cause he always gets phu to mack on girls, even though he knows that phus in a serious relationship. Always be flirting with girls. >_> anyways, kiani? Needed someone (girl figure) to start an argument with me at the dinner table LOL. Cause Phu's girlfriend at the time, didn't even know that he was married to me 14 yrs. OWNED! Ocean part? Both phu and I really want to live near the water in the near future. Drowning? Because phu and i went swimming with the group before we came back to santa rosa and I drowned a couple of times. LOL I don't know how to swim. As for all the other dreams? I have no clue. =]