I'm not really sure what's up with me lately. Trying to live life doing things for myself for a better future. But I'm not happy. I guess it's human feeling as if you're never satisfied. Always wanting more than what you already have. Eh.. School? It's shit to me, I care for it cause I know it's important. But I'm not trying as hard as I use to. Work? I hate/love work. Some treat me wrong, some treat me right, I have all the opportunities wrong, but I can't seem to make the right choices. >_<. Parents? Never treating me right. The only thing that still runs through their head is money. I was feeling down today, slept throughout the whole morning and afternoon. Three times mom came up and harassed me about work. Telling me that I'm worth nothing, that I'm a burden on her. I know its time to leave to live a better life, but I can't seem to leave yet. I'm stuck here because at the same time that my parents hate me, they need me. Been away from friends for a long time, slowly starting to feel distant from everyone. I don't really know what to do in situation. Wanting everyone to be happy, but having to give up my own happiness for theirs. Today, I want to start a new beginning. Say Fuck it, and start all over. New people, new life, new everything. Everyone that I use to be close to are leaving for the dumbest reasons. Anyways.. Tired.... I'm Just Tired.

SO....HELL?

Today was like every other monday. SLOW. School was eh.. got annoyed here and there, didn't want to talk to anybody much. Last night watched paranormal activity and got scared. >_> turned off everything that made a sound because I was super paranoid. Even this morning, I was too scared to lift the blanket off my head. Woke up at 6, realized that Jowe wasn't home and I was home ALONE. I was scared shitless, made myself get up with all lights on and get ready. LOL Got myself some coffee, went to class, went to work. Stupid work. There was an old guy that was trying to get to some free food by bullshiting me and trying to get me in trouble. He told me that he had a call in order that he was for sure that it was my voice. (EVEN THOUGH, he pointed out earlier that, he wasnt sure that it was me or ms. oh) grr.. anyways, he helped up a huge line during rush hour trying to get food, then was being indecisive about what to eat, cause he forgot his own order apparently. Whatever Ms. oh took care of it. I was pissed at him for even trying to put the blame on me about not taking care of business. THAT FUCK. I dont care if your old or not, YOU fuck with me, YOU DONE. BLEH. okay enough of that, got home and went straight to bed. Got a good nap, sweating though (I might be getting sick). Went to my second job. Tired, didnt want to even work there. Such an unhappy place. Worked with Evelyn and Mariana so it wasn't that bad. Was suppose to get off at 9 instead got off at 11 because mariana was closing. >_<>_> i dunno how to deal with the situation. Its about "him", im a part of it. But mainly its because he feels like hes not going anywhere. I feel like I have no freedom and i try my best to hang out with everyone, but im always caught at the wrong time. To him, he probably feels that im choosing my friends over him. To him, he probably feels that all I care about is working and getting bank. To him, he doesnt realize that im working my ass off because I want to give him the best. I understand that he wants me to relax, yes I do. But I have a debt to pay. I need to take care of business before I can juss sit down and chill out. Being in debt, stressing me over soo much more than anything and its the same towards him. Shit, he even blamed me as a cause of him spending soo much money. Saying that he spends too much money on me. How is that suppose to make me feel? So this is my plan, I work. TILL I DIE. I save up as much money as I can for myself AFTER. I pay him back his grand so he'd be happy. and whenever we do see each other. NO MORE compromising when it comes to money. I dont want him to feel like he needs to spoil me, and obviously he doesnt care if I spoil him. We're on our own. As much as I hate, being separated like this. I realized that money can tear us apart. So US and money dont match. He lends me money, He says he spoils me too much. I buy him things and spoil him? He doesnt see it. Or he might appreciate it, but he always says that he has done more things for me than I ever do for him. I guess I am a bad girlfriend. but to this point, I feel like im doing something good for myself, and I want to be with him still, but I just dont feel appreciated. if thats the case, I will become busier and we'll see what happens later in life. He says, he feels like he has no goals in life. Maybe if we were separated he wouldnt have to worry about me, he can worry about himself first before he can start caring for others. Im stuck in that point, im trying to take care of myself and im trying to take careof him as well. but the more he wants, the more I feel like failure because I can't give it to him.

1o.22.o9

Today, I was hella clumsy and out of it >_< . Probably because I haven't had enough sleep. I was knocking things over and messing up a couple of orders at work. Dammit, Not cool. Didn't go to my sociology class this morning, found out we actually have homework due. Doesn't matter though, its not a big problem for me. Slept in, since I had to go to work at 3:30-11:00. Grabbed some coffee at 7eleven. Yum. Best domo coffee ever. Anyways, dropped jack off at school and went to work. Got off at 1:45. Got dressed at school & hung out before I had to go back to work. Today was pretty kick back not too crazy. I was working with francisco & Claudia and Mariana today. Francisco wasn't really on my ass as much as he use to, pretty laid back actually. I was on table for most of the time then switched off to doing dishes for three hours. Till now my fingers are still all wrinkly and old looking. >_>. Right now i should be doing my homework, but instead I wanna blog out my day. Relieve some stress. Thank you michael for giving me a quick massage. It helped out a lot. LOL I NEED MORE! xD Thanks ced for the quesidilla. It was yummie. After work had to go to walmart to grab a couple things then went home and now im on here. Oh yeah. at work olga was in and out of the store. had no idea what was going on but yeah. She wanted to talk to me about my schedule, I told her everything was fine of whatever she was setting up with. I made a complaint about carmen today, she told me to talk to her, but to watch my words since carmen takes it up the ass pretty bad. >< how am I ever able to talk this through to carmen? Jeez, I guess ill juss have to find a right time to do it. Probably after 9 when shes about to leave or something. I hate it when she rushes me and do all these things. it pisses me off. Olga told me that she does it to everyone, but jeez shes gotta stop if its pissing everyone off. Not good. Welps, I owe cedric a passion fruit drink since I lost a bet. lol. Im sleepy, but must get work done.

1o.19.o9

*sighs* I can finally sit for once. >_< costume ="]">_>. I wished he could live with me. I spent the weekend over in Santa Rosa with him. Fun stuff, we didn't do anything extrodinary just small stuff. We switched his car all stock again, and I cleaned out my dirty ass car. Had a nice dinner with the fam bam. They didn't give me shit for once. ITS AMAZING. I had a nice time, but i'm not planning to abuse it. I bet that if i come down every weekend, they'll turn back to their old ways and treat me like crap again. NOT DEALING WITH IT. I've been watching everything that i've been eating. I don't drink anything besides water or juice. Food wise? I'm already picky as it is, so theres not worry there. Managers at stockton grill & burger are like my 2nd parents. They worry about me (makes me feel kinda loved in a way) lol. OFF SUBJECT! Okay. well today, my first job was slow but it was good. Comon' its a monday. I got off bought jack some lunch since he got really sick =[. Hope he feels better. I got myself some lunch and ate. Dressed up for my 2nd job. Worked. I didn't have to deal with carmen today yay! I thought she was gonna come in around 4:30. I was thinking shit, my day was going so good, now its gonna be all fucked up. Francisco came in instead. Isn't that bad. but still bad. I was thinking to myself that he was gonna keep me in for closing. >_< DU ma. it was the opposite though, he let me out around 9:30. Whoot! I started sneezing out of nowhere and all the mexicans that worked inside of mcdonalds were teasing me of that I got the h1n1. LOL MOFOS the only reason why I got it, cause you guys spread it over to me! xD I SO MEAN. lol anyways, fall is here and my allergies act up more than ever around this time. This is worse than spring, so I gotta stock up on my allergy medicine before people start freaking out pointing fingers that I'm some kinda of disease machine. I'm home now, I should be starting on my english homework,but oh hell. Im hella lazy right now. My mind is wandering. FUN FACT!!! I DROPPED OUT OF HISTORY! YAY!!!!!!!!!!! =]=]=]=]=] THAT BITCH IS GAYY! HMPF. John I loved your gummy bears. I ate it like a beast lol. okay i do homework now.

Disappointment.

Finally got outta my bed today, its both phu and I's 2yrs & 8 months anniversary today. Last night, we went out to grab a midnight snack at Mcdonalds. LOL geez, that place is everywhere. I was a lot happier going to a Mcdonalds where I didn't know anybody. No connection. For the past week, things been bugging me and pissing me off. Work isn't really as bad as I think it is. Just the people. Got in trouble friday >_> Right when I told cedric that carmen was on my ass, I think shes gonna hold a grudge on me forever now. Sandra was right in front of me when I said it out loud. Sandra is somewhat related to carmen and everyone told me to not say anything in front of her. Snitches are bitches. lol Anyways, My other job is doing okay, I feel bad that the managers don't trust kimber with taking a whole shift to herself. Imma try to help her out. Umm my condition? No idea whats gonna happen. Can't really go to the doctors right now, so I guess I'm stuck. Just gotta save up money and what not. As for "him", I understand that hes trying to keep his distance from me, but replacing his additude with me isn't gonna make anything better. Gimme me smart remarks are just gonna ending up making me hate you and not wanna be your friend anymore. Acting smart with me is practically insulting me. Its a big DUH that i dont like people who disrespect me. Espeacially at work. Messing with me one on one is one thing, but not in public when im at work when impressions are everything. I'm already to a point of being tired of you. This connection between us has gone to its limits. I'd like it better if we just stayed quittances. I understand that I changed you, but from what you say it is, its not a good change. Kris and tam had their fair share of blaming things on me towards their parents. I knew you were on lock down because of how you were changing, but I don't want to be at fault. When you told me that it was because of me thats why you were changing, I should of been feeling happy that you have a social life and that your happier this way. But instead I felt bad, knowing that you weren't taking care or your own business and taking care of yourself. Because of me. You were one of my biggest stress factors for this whole month. Hopefully everything will turn out for the bettter between us.
END.
New subject: PHU LIED TO ME! I took these two days off so we can go to frisco. >_<>_>..... So parents and I would split 50/50. Its not gonna happen. I'm going to pay for the whole thing I already know it. Whatever, another thing that would stress the fuck outta me. I'm not gonna get myself into it. Just let them do whatever. *sighs* I feel like everyone is walking all over me. What I need is space, not for everyone to grope all over me.

I cry.

It's really late at night and i'm a mess. =[ Got done finish talking with my parents about my medical problem. No Help. They came to conclusions. STUPID conclusions blaming them on things that has nothing to do with what's going on in my body. I'm sick. To a point where anything can happen to me. Parents care? Yes, they do. Will they try to help me? No. I told them that whatever is going on with me started back in Junior year and I've BEEN asking them to get insurance for the longest time, but they were too cheap to do so. Until NOW, when things get at its worse. They complained that I didn't persuade them enough to get insurance or some bullshit. Blaming my conditon on akuma saying he's dirty (STUPID). Anyways, I'm really fed up. I got papers to write and I can't even do so knowing how stupid my parents can get. I guess my treatment will have to wait a couple of years when I can save up enough to help myself through this hellhole.

Morning: Woke up this morning around 6:00am. Ugh. Struggle to get out of bed, took a shower and left. Called olga from work to remind her to not make me a closer on mondays, since I have school. >_<. Crazy beezie. Went to sociology felt like shit. Left 20 mins early, went back into the parking lot. Slept in my car until 10:20 to go to work. >_> Felt really sick, called olga back and she told me that it was required for me to grab a doctors note to excuse me from my absence. WTF?! really? only one day of work and I need a doctors note? Shit, We''re asians. asians don't go to doctors we become doctors. We depend our life on tylenol and advil LOL.

Afternoon: It was ridiculous. Called jowe, pissed off asked him for a 2nd opinon of what I should do. Went to my first job, it was coo. Slow business cause of the holiday. Ate some sushi that Mr. oh got me =] yee! Watched some bleach got ready for my 2nd and decided to take the shift. It was only 5 hours, I think I can manage. Plus, I did feel a little better than I did in the morning. Went to work and took a look at my new schedule. COOL! I got the days that I wanted off! BAD! I work ALL next week (school days) >_>. FUCCN GAY. I mean its kewl that she wants me to have my full hours and all, but damn. Gimme a break. Had Evelyn and Francisco working with me today. *sighs* Evelyn is kewl, hella understanding of where im coming from. Francisco? Not so much. He was on table with me for a while, but I was practically bymyself cause he kept walking off doing who knows what. actually he was just walking around talking to other people. Jeez I was pretty pissed off. Told evelyn that she migh tbe transfered to the other mcdonalds. She was pissed lol. But I told her it wasn't a for sure thing. lol I thought she knew. LOL maybe it was a rumor just going around. Well. I found out that Olga(store manager) isn't liked by anybody. AT ALL. they all called her a 2 face. All Bad. Two other people, sandra and someone else that I had to stay away from and tell them NOTHING since their related to Carmen. (the bitch that never lets me leave) Treats me like shit. HMPF. Anyways.....

Evening/Now: Finally got home from work. Both jobs today >_>. Well I got home actually pretty early today, at least earlier than usual. I got home around 9 o'clock tore off my uniform lol. I hate wearing that thing. Looked over my homework due tomorrow. Struggled with jowe's stupid printer that he adores. >_< I really want to throw that thing out the window. I bought ink for my other printer that Phu got me a while back. I can't wait till the ink comes in. No more Jowe's Printer. lol. Damn that thing, I hate finishing my homework late at night and spending an extra hour and hour and a half trying to print out a simple page of work. Thats the time I could be spending sleeping ya know? Talking to phu at the moment. Missing him like no tomorrow. Decorated my name tag for working finally. Loved what cedric got me for me. hehee. =]

1o.11.o9

Today, I actually had fun working at mcdonalds. yee! =p. Got let off pretty early. I got three managers that im liking so far. I don't mind if they yell at me. the one thing that i hate the most is when he expect me to do 5 different things all at once. At least the managers today apologized when they realized I only have two arms and two legs. lol. Got to slap tuan with a snack wrapper. =] Got to handle my business on the table. I can work with the speed. Got to know a little bit more about the coworkers there. Got to hang out with John before work. He told me he went 65 down calvine and he said he would never speed again. >_> sadly, I drive 65 all the time down calvine. HAHA.. horrible me. I didn't say anything to him though LOL. I got my milktea. made my day a whole bunch better. Right now, im my room talking to phu and writing this thing. Waiting on jack so we all can go to Crestview tonight. YAY! Bowling, something that I haven't done in hella long. I can't wait. Got work at two tomorrow ugh!

45 Lessons Of Life <3

Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio

"To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life
taught me. It is the most-requested column I've ever written."

My odometer just rolled over to 90, so here is the column once more:

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends
and parents will. Stay in touch.

5. Pay off your credit cards every month.

6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.

8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.

9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

11. Make peace with your past, so it won't screw up the present.

12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.

13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their
journey is all about.

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry;
God never blinks.

16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.

18. Whatever doesn't kill you, really does make you stronger.

19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood.. But the second
one is up to you and no one else.

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take
no for an answer.

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie.
Don't save it for a special occasion.. Today is special.

22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.

23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.

25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words : 'In five
years, will this matter?'

27. Always choose life.

28. Forgive everyone everything.

29. What other people think of you, is none of your business.

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time,, time.

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

33. Believe in miracles.

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything
you did or didn't do.

35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.

37. Your children, get only one childhood.

38. All that truly matters in the end, is that you loved.

39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's,
we'd grab ours back.

41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

42. The best is yet to come.

43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

44. Yield.

45. Life isn't tied with a bow, "but it's still a gift."

This monday sucked balls. Forreal though. Anyways, this morning woke up cold as fuck. Didn't want to get outta bed till 7:30. Got ready got to school to find out that my class was cancelled. I rushed through traffic and everything! >_<. Gayy, good thing that class was cancelled cause later on My coworker tells me that she's sick and she wanted me to cover her shift. No problem right? BUT! i had work at my other place at 4. Her shift doesn't end till 5. Du ma. So I tried calling my other work place about 5 times, the calls wouldn't go through. Damn them. But when I did get a hold of them it was all kewl. SO no worries. the only thing was bothering me was that I won't have time to finish up my homework for tomorrow. that stressed me the hell out. To find out that after I was done with my first shift, heading towards my other job. I came there around 5:30 . at the time that I said I was going to arrive at. I was suppose to be working 4-9 today. They put me in as 5:30-1:30 am. WTF. I got a 7:30 class in the morning tomorrow. I told the managers that, like they cared. PISSED ME THE HELL OFF. That seriously ruined my day, still pissed now. Finally got to leave early around 9:00 thank god. & now writing in this. and finishing up my homework. TODAY WAS A GAY DAY.

1o.o4.o9

The end finally just ended for me tonight. Just got home from working a 8 hour shift. Closing for the first time is a pain especially when the "coolest" manager ends up being the "butthole" for the night. Only towards me though, why? I have no clue. Knowing that I was the only girl there closing, I felt useless. Well. Not really, he just made me feel useless. Anyhow, my whole day? Just working my ass off. Got my first paycheck today. Satisfied? Not really, those two weeks of training wiped me out and what ended up in my hand. I wasn't really feeling it. At least its something, it gets me through life. Got some things straightened out. Found out a friend was a total asshole that I thought he was. =] Good news. Our friendship is cool, BUT since what happened. Happened. I'm still going to watch myself, only because there's a possibilty of something similar that can happen. I'm juss rambling now lol. Haven't started on homework one bit. I won't be able to start on it tomorrow. so lets hope that I have time to finish all of it on Monday. =[ My work is taking my life over. I come to work, not even happy. Isleep. Goodnight.

My New Life <3

Man, I haven't updated this thing for hella long. Haven't had the time to do so. >_<>_< Both involving food = making me become one of those crazy picky eaters. LOL and NO Reece, not everything I choose is from mcdonalds. I think the food there sucks, and not even worth the money. Dork. He pissed me off pulling that shit off last night. Whatever though LOL. Happy Bday to him =] Still got love for you lol. Anyhow, Busy busy. Part-time student in the mornings. Working afternoon & evening till 10. Afterwards? Still no break, got that homework to finish. I crash. and when I mean crash I mean KoEd snoring. Yet, I still try to find the time in the world to spend with my love and my beloved friends. Without them, I wouldn't be able to do half of the things that i'm doing now. Sadly, throughout all this work i'm doing, im still in debt. Crazy debt. its all good though. UPDATE: found out how fuckd up one of my use to be close friend is. Hmpf. I'm juss gonna give him his money and remain as aquitances with him. Unbelievable. Right now? I should be doing some homework and rest up for another day of work tomorrow. but hey whatever. I wanna do this blogger. Gotta vent out somehow. *yawns* tired tired. I miss everyone, I miss phu. I feel like I don't have enough time to have that "connection" with everyone. Just to let you guys know. I didn't forget about you guys! lol Welps, I should head off and do what I gotta do. Wish me luck =]

I'm leaving tonight. For the good. Phu finally realized that I have had enough of his parents. Plus, took him two months to figure it out. But hey its something. Yesterday, his parents gave us crap again like usual and phu decided that it's time for me to go. I don't really want to say much. Got a headache. To end off the rest of the day. Both Phu and I are going to watch the fireworks at Bodega Bay tonight before heading back to Sacramento. =] Gonna miss him like crazy when he's gone. Oh yay! Update...I got my lucky title and my unlucky title lol. So far, we just told his dad that I was leaving and he choked on his words. He wanted to say something BS, but we stunned him for the moment. He wanted us to take his car (its to make sure that Phu doesn't end up running away) So its for sure that he'll come back home. But phu insisted of taking his car LOL. His mom is gonna have a fit though. Anyways, his dad has guest over, so he didn't want to look bad. He was all sucking up to Phu and asking to use his camera over the weekend. UGH. I have officially decided that we are going to be a broken family. Only cause his side, treat me as if im a rat living in their home. They haven't given me any sign of respect since I've been here. Only to push me down, call me names and order me around like some house maid. As for my parents, their slowing giving Phu a chance to regain his trust. OO By the way, on the 4th is a bad reunion. Let's just hope that nothing bad happens on this upcoming fourth. =] Well I've been packing all morning && cleaning to make sure everything is gonna go smoothly. I'm just hoping that his parents don't ask why I'm leaving home and pretend stupid. Cause I really have to be open minded and break my chain with his family. Phu is the first asian and the last asian guy I will ever date. I don't know what the fuck type of tradition asian ways their trying to pull. but im not going through this BS anymore. I AM A HUMAN BEING.

Dreams Vs. Reality

Lately, I have been having really crazy thoughts.. Every time I close my eyes, Crazy ass dreams.. man.. I don't really know where to start. I had a couple the day before yesterday, that was a lot more dramatic than last nights. My very first dream was placed in the future. Both phu and I were married for about 14 years and we decided to take a break. Phu took the break to a whole different level and decided to date behind my back. He was dating this typically asian girl, decent like for a good 7 months. His two other friends were also in the dream. Kevin && Kiani. they did date in the past, but in my dream they were still together. awkward, but yeah. they seemed to know what he was doing, but was fine with the idea. He invited me to a dinner with all of them. I met up with them at some resturant, wondered why there was a girl sitting next to him and how I was sitting on the opposite side. Found out the truth, freaked out. Went NEGRO on his ass, left. He chased after me home. We had a home together near the ocean. in the back yard was a dock, I locked all the doors so he wouldn't get near me. While locking him inside the house and screaming I tripped on the dock and drowned to my death. =] My second dream, was ugh...now im trying to remember it all. HAHA. MAN, too much of that msg I swear. LOL Hmm my second dream took place at the super market. Haha the group that I hang out with was in this dream. ISH. lol We were up in Richmond at the Pacific asian mall. We were split up and grabbing things. Phu was with tuan and dee up in the chip isle and grabbing some snacks. John and everyone else was out to get alcohol. LOL I got distracted by a sign that said crawfish for a dollar. LOL ( like a safeway bag worth for a dollar each). I freaked out and grabbed my own cart and bought about 15 dollars worth. LOL Then For some reason, I was craving seaweed in my dream and I found a poster board size bag of them for 5 bucks. I met up with everyone. Everyone called me crazy, but they were excited cause we have hella food. =] Funky second dream... I was hungry xD My third dream. Took place at the superbowl. HUGE STADIUM FOSHO. Only Me and jowe were together in this dream. the thing was sponsered by Round table and they were giving out free pizza to everyone. Of course jowe and I sat at the very end of the row. so we got the last piece. There was only one and jowe gave me the last piece. I felt bad and told him ill go get more for him. While I was telling him that I was gonna get more pizza. They were shooting t-shirts and hotdogs with the potato gun lol. They also said that there was a contest of a celebrity in the stadium in disguise and if we found out who it was. We would get a automatic contract sign or some shit. To find out, when i was looking for the round table. It was all the way in the front entrance. Everyone was inside watching the game so barely anyone was in the front. I saw the celebrity. I can't remember if it was USHER or CHRIS BROWN. both mofos are negro. LOL but gyeah found them, and got the contract signed to be in musicvideo/song. But i told jowe to take my place instead. UGH. cause i dont really like them. Anyways, bought some pizza and got it back to jowe. END. LOL My very last dream was sort of like my first. We were both at my friend mario's house and his ex decided to come by to visit. For some reason she was acting differently (more outgoing than usual) and macking on Phu. I guess trying to piss off mario or what not. Roque and I were downstairs playing on the wii. She takes phu outside and brags about how cool his car is. ( trying to get him in the car to drive off somewhere "private" ). For some reason, mario stayed inside the house. Both roque and I came outside and sat on marios car and watched them two do what they were doing. I didn't want to sound like a girlfriend that would trip, so I let them go off. Phu likes it when people brag about stuff he likes, so he had no idea what she was trying to pull off. LOL cause hes blind like that. xD that was the end of the dream.

REALITY CHECK!

Both phu and I are doing well, but I have my doubts. Always! lol but then most of these dreams were caused by hunger and bad days. His parents drives me nuts and they always scream before or after we go to bed. Anyways, My first dream was easy to break apart. Took in the future because phu and I talk about what we want when we have a settled life. I have my insecurities, so thats where the break takes part. The random girl? Well, probably cause my friend met a girl online and we hung out with them a couple days ago. kevin and kiani? Kevin was in it, cause he always gets phu to mack on girls, even though he knows that phus in a serious relationship. Always be flirting with girls. >_> anyways, kiani? Needed someone (girl figure) to start an argument with me at the dinner table LOL. Cause Phu's girlfriend at the time, didn't even know that he was married to me 14 yrs. OWNED! Ocean part? Both phu and I really want to live near the water in the near future. Drowning? Because phu and i went swimming with the group before we came back to santa rosa and I drowned a couple of times. LOL I don't know how to swim. As for all the other dreams? I have no clue. =]

o6.29.o9



Alright. Sooo Today is both Phu and I's first day back to Santa Rosa. We both had a blast back in Sacramento. Hanging out with the coolest friends ever. Anyhow, we both came home around 5, but we didn't get into the house till 5:30am. His dad was about to head off to work, and we didn't want to talk to anybody at the time. His parents are the loud type. Always complaining about something and blah blah blah. We just went to sleep afterwards since we pulled an all nighter. We woke up around 1:30pm and starting doing out daily chores before his dad comes home around 2. We ran some errands. Nothing special. Mom came home from work at 7. Started shit with me about forcing me to speak viet to her. BS this, bs that. I don't even speak viet to my own parents, what makes her things that she got any privileges? She doesn't even treat me as an equal person in her home. I'm a guest. She treats me like a house slave. Stupid bitch. Sorry, but I needed to say it out loud. My little cutie =]


Bought akuma an igloo kinda like this
....... but light green.

o6.22.o9 My Escape =]

Today was UBER fun. ISH. LOL Both phu and I pulled an all nighter the night before and slept only for about and hour and a half. Jeez, his mom was being stupid. UGH. stupid stupid. Not even gonna get into details about that psycho. Anyhow, we left the house around 6:30am to go to roques house. The plan was to go with him to oakland to go to a doctors appointment. So we did that, a whole hour drive for a 10 minute check up. >_< haha.... taught them how to play 99. xD Fun Fun, afterwards we went to the pacific mall. I got me some DIMSUM! yum! and seaweed. I gotta have my daily dose of seaweed. Went through a couple of anime stores to check out some stuff. I was on a hunt for my piggies ^_^. There soo expensive! I managed to get my hands on a frame though. It's sexay... Well, we all called it a day after oakland and I juss passed out. We slept for a good hour or two. Then phu's phone went off. It was a reminder of a party that we both forgot that we were invited to. LOL crazy, so we pretty much juss got all fixed up in 5 minutes and rushed out the door. =] I loved it cause we barely saw the parents. They got to squeeze in a couple bs here and there while we were on the way out though. Still STUPID. LOL so we went to the party, HELLA white people. Its all good though, it was an educational party type. I didnt mind much, as long as I wasn't stuck home. xD So afterwards, we all went to applebees and got our grub on. I can never finish my food sadly... & now im here. =] Its almost midnight and im crashing... BAD..... WELPS, GOODNIGHT ALL & thanks for listening in. It probably made no sense to you guys, but its OKAY. I try..

Recently....o6.2o.o9

Currently in Santa Rosa....
Mood? I'm lovin' it =]
Today...the day just started. Watched my daily dose of SNAPPED. Hehe..crazy women killing their husbands. rawr...fierce. Music wise? Leaning a lot more towards country for some reason.. Just seem like the lyrics makes more sense then hearing "niggah" a million times. Random events happening today? Parents are making pho for some guests that are coming down. Phu and I are planning to go to Scandia and get our game on with his friend ERIC. Phu's friend Mario wants to introduce us to his new girlfriend Karen later in the evening. BUFFET!!! WHOOT! Excited to meet the new buddy, I might end up scaring her, but its all good. My camera is ready and set for the night. lol For the past couple of days.....Phu and I shaved akuma (our bby guinea), hes not fat at all! >_<>

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