I'm not really sure what's up with me lately. Trying to live life doing things for myself for a better future. But I'm not happy. I guess it's human feeling as if you're never satisfied. Always wanting more than what you already have. Eh.. School? It's shit to me, I care for it cause I know it's important. But I'm not trying as hard as I use to. Work? I hate/love work. Some treat me wrong, some treat me right, I have all the opportunities wrong, but I can't seem to make the right choices. >_<. Parents? Never treating me right. The only thing that still runs through their head is money. I was feeling down today, slept throughout the whole morning and afternoon. Three times mom came up and harassed me about work. Telling me that I'm worth nothing, that I'm a burden on her. I know its time to leave to live a better life, but I can't seem to leave yet. I'm stuck here because at the same time that my parents hate me, they need me. Been away from friends for a long time, slowly starting to feel distant from everyone. I don't really know what to do in situation. Wanting everyone to be happy, but having to give up my own happiness for theirs. Today, I want to start a new beginning. Say Fuck it, and start all over. New people, new life, new everything. Everyone that I use to be close to are leaving for the dumbest reasons. Anyways.. Tired.... I'm Just Tired.

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